I have discovered it is really hard to be Queen in a household with 3 princesses! Somebody is always borrowing my tiara! Well in between hunting my stuff down I am the proclaimed Queen in the Land of fluff (where my husband swears one day that he will die from glitter lung (you get the picture!) Besides that I am a dieting, exercising, crafting, biblestudying kind of girl.
Oklahoma is a landlocked state located above the state of Texas. Our history is that the land prior to statehood used to be Indian territory & cattle trails. Our state tree is the beautiful redbud tree.
I live in a small town in Oklahoma. It's considered a suburb. There are neighborhoods with homes that are 2-4 bedrooms. Some are single level and others are two stories.
People are friendly and wave at one another. However, there is not much interaction between neighbors unless bad weather hits. Oklahoma is in "tornado alley" which the National weather service. Due to the high number of tornadoes we experience. When bad weather strikes everyone turns on the TV set and listens to the news but we also keep one eye on the sky. It is because of this sky watching that the neighbors come out of all our air conditioned & heating homes and begin to talk to one another while watching the sky for signs of tornadoes. I think it must be what people did prior to having TV, iPods, and kindles to entertain them. They had to rely on real interaction with people to learn the latest news, or be entertained by a funny story. In fact bad weather, before or after a storm surveying the damage is sometimes the only real conversation we ever have. Do you have interaction with neighbors where you live? Does it come easily? What things do you find bring you all together?
I was looking back at throwback thurs pictures. Laughing at the high school me, all worried about how I looked, what I was wearing had the right labels, or the right look.
Am I now 43 and finally able to admit, I don't have it all together! Yes, I like to look the best that I can look. Labels are not my focus now days. i find myself consumed by how good a mom, housecleaner, cook, etc... I am. But to be honest yes, somedays I am super mom! The laundry is all done, the living room is picked up, dusted & vacuumed. Even fresh flowers in a vase on the dining room table. Booyah!!
However, lets be real. Authentically real! Somedays I have the laundry done, but it's all folded & stacked just waiting for the energizer bunny to come by and put it up. Somedays (one ever 6 weeks) there is a thing called "early release" days. Yes, I did forget it about it & I had to walk 20 minutes late the "walk of shame" into the school to get my daughter. (Insert deep sigh here!). I also got frustrated at the dr office receptionist for wanting to book me an appt before they could tell me what type of dr I should see Even though I have an PPO & don't need a referral. (Yes, I apologized for demanding my own way)
Why, is it important to admit defeat and imperfectness & even failure. It reminds us that we need God, and that non of us are perfect. Also that we can acknowledge that we too sometimes have the same struggles and can connect with each other. Anyone else out there not perfect? Just working on making improvements & growing closer to God daily? I think keep my focus on Him helps me feel complete & accepted.
Well lightening does strike twice! I am back on the road to lose weight. I even darkened the door of the gym (Sky gym) and survived 40 minutes of spin class & a yoga class (completing maybe 1/2 of the "flow" part of class) and managed to walk out to my car afterwards. Whew! We shall see!!! I'm off to soak in a hot bath, hope you have a good week!!
I'm a mom of 3 girls. I remember when I first found out I was pregnant with our oldest. I could not wait to get my hands on the book "What to expect while your expecting". I poured over this book reading every page for the remaining of my pregnancy.
I was prepared! Ha! Yes, for a lot of what happened to my body when I was pregnant, yes I was prepared. The book even warned about postpartum depression.
The book however did not not to warn me of the following(nor did any other book that I have read):
*the wonderful feeling of being able to "retire" the diaper bag & resume carrying that thing called a purse again
*how my heart with swell with pride. When my little one's eyes meet mine & their face broke into a huge grin
*How you get that little nudge in your heart when your ready to have another one.
* how even when you know your done having babies. Your family is complete, there's a part of you that gets a little depressed that you will never again feel the flutter of a little baby kicking inside you.
*how great it is when you can holler "let's go!" And everyone can go get in the car & buckle themselves-yes!
* how you a sane, calm, we'll adjusted grown up can feel such rage rush through your bones when one of your daughter's is crying & in emotional pain from bullying. (How can you feel that much anger towards a 6 year old little girl! Momma bears understand, who knew!)
* how old you would feel to go shopping with a teen in a poorly lighted, loudly playing music, over priced store would make you feel
* you will one day have to "teach" your daughters all the things you do without thinking (washing your hair, shaving your legs, waxing your eyebrows,applying eye liner )
* or the realization that all your babies have outgrown the "kid sized" hangers! (Seriously, this felt like an elbow to the rib cage)
*how as a mom of 3 girls I would constantly be hunting down my stuff! (Where's my____________? Feel free to insert nail polish remover, hair spray, earrings, etc...)
*or how weird it is to teach your kid to drive.
*how you pray for children throughout the day no matter how old they get.
*how you will be a chauffeur, a geography expert, explain how you vote & why, you thought your parents asked a lot of questions (where are you going? With who? What time do you plan on being back? It was really training for all the questions that your kids one day would ask you)
Now those are the things I wish that someone had warned me about!!!
Who am I? What do I enjoy doing? What am I doing? Sometimes those answers come so quickly to my mind. At other times they cause me to pause. What I enjoy doing, is changing. I have always enjoyed crafting but I am currently enjoying learning some new skills! As well as picking up some old ones again. I have started crocheting which is completely new! As well as embroidering (which my grandma taught me when I was a young teen) and smashing! A version of art journal, scrap booking combined. A new hobby sorta of, but very fun!
I am trying to learn to enjoy life. For the simple pleasures that are offered each day, not necessarily for marking off my to do list.
I have gained the weight back that I worked so hard to lose. It was a frustrating time. I went through depression over the summer and did not even care that I was putting it back on. However I have started some anti depressant and am feeling like my old self again. So like the saying goes. If your unhappy about something, your not a tree- get up & do something about it. So tomorrow on e again I renew my commitment to exercise and eat better. We shall see if good health follows. I hope so!